Since moving to what was once one of the most dangerous cities in the world, Ciudad Juarez, my mortality and death have been on my mind almost every day. The memories of the height of the drug violence that once plagued this dear border city, surround me every day. The shattered glass in a empty store front, the empty store fronts of the businesses that the memorial Teddy bear of a child who died on the side of the road, the memorial statue that stands in the entrance of the U.S. consulate of the Mexican staff that were killed years ago during the drug violence, my own dog that died here in Juarez…
The events of 2013, throughout the world, including the death of American diplomats and our safety around the world, the death of my Mexican colleague this past weekend, and the deaths of the Boston marathon have only heightened how I think about my life.
LIFE is short. I used to think that if I avoided danger, I could avoid death. However, as I get older, I realize that when it is time to go, it is time to go. Because of this new self-actualization, I don’t want to waste moments doing things that I do not enjoy, being with people that bring me down, and holding myself back from how I feel.
I want to live, I mean really LIVE. I want do things that bring joy and scare me, I want to truly be myself and be true to the people around me. Right now, I am going through a serious health scare. I find out the results of series of tests next week. Until then, I want to live in the moment, but also think of the consequences. I want to take myself to new heights, without negative consequences. I want to dream of the future, without forgetting about the now.
My motto that I say at least once a day is “LIFE IS FOR LIVING.” I mean it every time I say it. What are you going to do that makes you feel more alive?
Living and working as a U.S. Diplomat has it’s certain quirks. One of which is shipping your life and things around every two-three years around the world. It is an easy process when it comes to packing. In my experience moving from Chicagoland to DC, then DC to Mexico was a breeze. All I had to do was label what I wanted in long-term storage (things that I want to stay in a warehouse outside of DC), what I wanted to arrive immediately (unaccompanied air luggage, and arrives in the first 2-3 weeks), the larger items that take much longer to arrive and needs to clear foreign customs household goods), and the packers did all of the packing, labeling, and heavy lifting. Thank the lord!
While waiting for the bulk of my things to arrive, I can usually make do. I don’t need that much to live. However, my dilemma is the weather. Now that I live in Mexico where the weather is always pleasant, I get a lot of use out of my warm weather clothing. However, my family and boyfriend live in colder climates (Chicago and DC respectively). When I was moving from DC in August, I forgot to pack warm weather clothes. I just assummed when I packed that after my eighth week in Mexico the bulk of my household goods and warm weather clothing would have arrived already.
1. The Karen Zambos Vintage Couture Oversize Wrap. Possibly the chicest wrap known to mankind.
2. 525 America Knit Cable Sweater. OMG this sweater is cozy. It is like wearing a comforter all day. I will treat this baby with extreme love and care.
3. French Connection Winter Warmer Sweater. While this sweater isn’t the coziest, it is the perfect color for warm fall days. It is also perfect for when the weather is not too cold and not too warm.
Sadly, these sweaters arrived after I came back from my trips to DC and Chicago. Such is life.
Sure! I am in a fellowship called the Charles B. Rangel International Affairs Fellowship for Graduate Students.
I covered it in a post here:
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For general information on Careers at the State Department I would go
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let all of my blog readers know as soon as I know!
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Let me know if you have any other questions! Thanks for asking.
After my workout, I went to meet my foreign service mentor for lunch in the Foggy Bottom neighborhood of DC. The place we met was a buffet but…
I went with a chicken sandwich on whole wheat bread. It had a bit of bacon (I can’t remember the last time I had real bacon!), avocado, a weird orange sauce, lettuce and tomato. I also ate a couple of fries and half of the pickle! I actually pulled off a lot of the bacon and wished they didn’t put so much sauce on the sandwich. Yum.
I had a the -itis afterward and I bought a black coffee from Starbucks. I sprinkled some cocoa powder and splenda in it. Then I had the motivation to study!
Later, I met a friend at Cheesecake Factory for a light dinner, but I didn’t take any pictures.
I then met a friend/sorority sisters for drinks. Well not on purpose, actually. I was going to be there for one hour and leave. All I wanted was water. But before I even took off my jacket, she ordered me a shot of Patron. 3 shots later…
I had to get something to eat! I purchased a appetizer of ceviche. It was good but it had too many onions! It was also way too expensive!
Then we watched the game and took silly pictures!
We stopped at one more place and then I finally headed home. What a random day!